Sunday, April 12, 2009
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i wonder why i'm feeling so outcasted now, i really don't. its just a feeling i have, whether or not i am really outcasted i dun know. but i just felt that... i dunno, weird feeling i'm feeling right now. its not that i dun have friends, its not that they didn't care. somehow i just feel this way.
I rmbr a time where i was taught to treat ppl the way i would want them to treat me. somehow i'm having a weird feeling now, cause things doesn't seem to happen that way. prob cause i'm more of the introvert type? i'm clueless XD maybe the ppl around me have changed, or perhaps my mentality have changed, i dunno, i sense a difference, but somehow i can't seem to catch up/blend in with it. it just feels weird(very feelings based right?)
why must u destroy the hope that i have? i have no idea if what i'm doing is right or wrong. If its right, then why does it hurt so much? then again, if its wrong, why do i keep wanting to do it?prob its like what was stated in shun ji's msn pm. its states a scenario of paul(bible character), paul said that he knew what is right & what is wrong, but yet he is unable to do what is right and instead he con't to do what is wrong. i wonder if its the same for me. the answer is in my heart, but perhaps i have not found it yet or i have refused the answer.
alfred thanked jesus at1:43 AM
