Wednesday, December 9, 2009
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i no balls? ur boobs are prob so small ur bf had to use a map to find it >:(
alfred thanked jesus at8:51 AM
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
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i am feeling dead tired now!!!!!!! XDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXD
just here to let off some steam...
ppl dun like truth, they like lies....
I will make known some truths tt i know and some lies that i hear.
people always say that it is the heart that matters... bullshit! that is one big fat lie! like it or not, people do look at appearance. even if ur heart shine like the sun, you will still get discriminated if you look like a beast! I have been through loads of experiences where i am being shunned due to my looks. sure, u must thinking that, "u dun look that bad wat". LIAR! i look super ugly lor, like some nerdy geeky bookworm. dun bother comforting me by telling me i look ok la, cause that is so hypocritical. Seriously, why bother lieing to me? =.=
if u think that isn't true, i shall bring forth one of my past experience.
Once my friend was holding a b'day party and was discussing with some friends who to invite. She was like talking to my clique of friends then she decided that she would invite my entire clique except me XD reason being? cos i'm a no life.
more examples, everytime i go like chat with some girl, they give me those =.= look, even when i try telling them a joke, they will just reply with a "oh, ok". No big deal right? story's not over yet. Suppose a more better looking person comes by and talk to them, they will not give the =.= look, plus they will even give a reply. the better looking guy can tell them a joke, and they will laugh. Irony is it?
The truth is that as ppl, we will all judge another fro hi or her looks, i am saddened by the stupidity of man.... but can i blame God? i suppose not... i have chatted with some of my cyber friends and most of them tell me that I will be able to find my perfect girl that loves my heart. =.= lies yet again
perhaps i am made to be this way, to live a life of a loner so that i can learn. cause i rly learn alot by being alone, things that cannot be seen by the people involved, things tt cannot be seen by those that follow the crowd, things that can only be seen when u stand on the sidelines patiently and observe....
alfred thanked jesus at12:37 AM
Friday, August 21, 2009
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i really really hate this scenario that i am in, it is terrible, surrounded by hypocrites, flooded by the million and one bullshit of the world. People are too barbaric, no one is doing anything, when someone tries to make a difference, they get murdered either physically or emotionally. being able to see how people are all just minions of society. i assure u that it is hard to live when u are the only one that see and the rest of the world is blind.
imagine a scenario where the entire world is blind and u are the only one that is gifted with sight. How tough is it to tell the world about the things around them? How do u describe to them the colours of the world? how do u describe to them the vision, the scene that u see? It is near impossible unless people starts to open their eyes.... One man alone is tough.. I feel that there is noone to join me on my fight, this destiny that i must follow through, the destiny to be of someone of difference, someone cut off from the world....
I know not what to do now, but... i just want to vent out my frustrations... living in a world of idiots....
i hate my family...
alfred thanked jesus at12:49 AM
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
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I am super pissed off with my class, they are like mindless freaks la, cannot decide for themselves de. Today Mr eric go through the splash poster, then everyone keep asking vincent for ideas la, seriously la, do they even feel a sense of accomplishment even if they do complete the poster? It's like you are using vincent's idea and claiming it as your own, it's dumb, it's retarded.
alfred thanked jesus at9:27 PM
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
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is everybody going crazy? or is it just me?
alfred thanked jesus at5:00 AM
Friday, May 8, 2009
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I'm so tired / weary now!!! XD i am constantly sleeping in the wee hours of the morning and receiving minimal sleep each day just so that i can have some form of "enjoyment" and "me" time. so many things to do and time constantly seems to be running out. Everyone is like asking me for stuffs and everything. BB, school etc.
does hardwork always pay off? i have no idea, from what i see, it doesn't. its like u either become some mindless freak of nature that immense yourself in doing what u do and nothing else. I can't tolerate doing me poly project 24/7, I can't tolerate keeping my mouth shut for 24/7.
I'm missing you badly now, why are u giving me a cold shoulder? if there's anything about me that turns u off, you could have told me, why the cold treatment? its hard for me not to think of you, each time i hesitate contacting you, cause i have no idea if i am looking forward to your reply/ reaction. its either u give me some super short reply or u dun reply at all. did my sms irritate u? i have no idea, i really don't. I dun contact you often, but yet u give me the feeling that you find me an eyesore and hope that i would nvr contact u. dunno what i should do now. persist or what? my efforts to be in vain. you have no idea what i did for u, but then again, i doubt it would make any difference. You'll prob just ignore me again, i dunno if i should respect ur decision by gradually disappearing from your life.....
i feel like some idiot, doing something for no reason
alfred thanked jesus at7:06 AM
Thursday, May 7, 2009
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did i do anything wrong to make u ignore me? i dun get it, why can't we even be friends?
I'm tired, tired of constantly being a fool in most of the things that i do. i wonder if i should persist
tired... i really am
alfred thanked jesus at7:11 AM
